You never know...... **Trigger Warning**

You never know how much being told to commit suicide hurts well, not until you're told to. Especially when you already consider it every second of every day. That means that your suspicions are true. Nobody cares, nobody ever did. You've been alone all along. In the way of peoples lives, making them worse. It hurts the most though, when the person telling you that you should commit suicide is someone that you love. A random person saying it hurts, sure, becuase they're someone you dont really effect in life. But when it's someone you really care about, someone that you try to make a difference in the life of. Someone you look up to. Someone that means the world to you. When someone like that tells you to kill yourself, your heart stops beating. The world stops spinning. Your existence is irrelevent. If your life isn't effecting the person you care about, what is the reason for your existence? Why are you still alive? If you aren't helping that person, infact making their lives worse, then why should you carry on?